Sunday, 6 February 2011

D-Day is coming

So, when I wake up in the morning (regardless of whether it is from Isaac or Liddy waking me in the wee small hours or because I have unusually managed a full night's uninterrupted sleep) I will be on a diet. I hate that phrase. "On a diet" just immediately makes you feel rebellious doesn't it? Like my 3 year old who does whatever we tell her not to, or that Derren Brown episode where the girl was told not to "push the red button". I'm wondering how this is going to be any different. After all, the next 5-10 days of my life (I haven't yet decided whether to try for longer than the 5 days on Attack) are going to be as full of rules regarding food as the Army is with discipline. According to Dukan, us fatties need rules to follow, so we'll see how rebellious I feel.

A slight blessing, in a very strange way, is I have a dentist appointment for a filling tomorrow afternoon, so by the time the "carb desires" hit I'll be slobbery everywhere and will have a numb mouth and tongue - so there'll be no temptation there then.

I'm not going to lie, I'm apprehensive about this diet. I'm signing up for an 11 month diet of protein and veg in essence, my will has been week previously and I really want this time to be different. Over dinner today my mother in law made a comment, which was well-intentioned, that made me feel as though everyone was expecting me to fail at this, like it was too hard to achieve. That works in my favour, as I do enjoy proving people wrong! I just have to remind myself why I want to lose the weight, so here is my reason list (I think I might stick it on my fridge too):

  • To feel good about myself
  • To be able to shop in "normal" clothes shops
  • To wear clothes that make me feel good
  • To reignite that mojo ;)
  • To not be exhausted when playing with the children
  • To not be an embarrassment to my children
  • To not die young
  • To not develop diabetes
  • To not feel old before my time
  • To not feel my double chin in the way when I lay down to read a book (fellow fatties will know what I mean here!)
  • To be able to have a waterbirth if we are lucky enough to have a 3rd baby
So, there it is. Surely that should be enough to keep me going? Well, I guess we'll just have to wait and see.

I will return tomorrow as a Dukan Dieter and I am strangely looking forward to it. There really is a slim, yummy, mummy inside of this fat, slummy, mummy just waiting to emerge.

1 comment:

  1. I think doubts are normal, I'd be lying if I said I didn't have any. In fact, just yesterday the reality of eating, for the best part of a year, pure protein and vegetables hit me. It WILL be tough, I think we are wise to accept that, we WILL gave days/hours/maybe even weeks when we think we can't do it, but if we keep our motivations strong in our minds (sticking them in fridge or something is a great idea), then we WILL do this!

    I was worrying about the cost implications, for me, I'm on cruise until May (Dukan prediction), then I can start consolidation and add those few foods back in...however, as I said above, that's still pure protein and veg for almost a year, which ain't cheap...BUT in the grand scheme of things, if this let's us acheive what we so want to acheive, we will be better off...in health and happiness.

    That sounds like a load of preachy mumbo jumbo, but I hope you know what I mean, and I hope on the days we inevitably struggle, we can spur each other on.

    Let's do this...(ready for some cheesiness..), we dukan do dis ;) xxx

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