A "brave" moment of honesty

I mentioned when I started this blog that I didn't want to be fat for the school run etc, but what I didn't tell you was that I had my "moment" after my father in laws 60th birthday party. You know that moment when you go (excuse the expletive, but it is necessary) "Fuck! How did that happen - that's not me."? Well, I had mine over a particularly lardy cooked breakfast, while searching my iPhone looking for the photos taken by the photographer the night before.

I was excited as I'd had some photos taken of Lyds and I, as well as some with James and Lydia. I stupidly expected to see gorgeous photos of me and my gorgeous girl. WRONG! Instead I found the most HIDEOUS photos I have ever seen of me. I was COLLOSAL (still am but am doing something about it now).

My girl looks gorgeous - I look like a whale.

The party was at the same place we had our wedding reception, so the last lot of photos from there I love, but not these. Now, obviously these photos are copyrighted so I can't just add them to my blog - and I would probably kill any member of the family who bought them (disclaimer: I use the word kill in jest, but I would be seriously unhappy with them), but they are on the photographer's website (who knows how long for), but here goes... *deep breath in* this is the photo that will turn out to be the catalyst that changed my life

 Oh Fatty!

and in the spirit of photo sharing I'm going to add one from the only other time I was photographed at the same location (still overweight I hasten to add, but about 4 stone lighter - and gosh those 4 stones make SO much difference, oh and it's at the church rather than the hotel, but I haven't got many wedding photos on this laptop)

There you go! That's the first part of my "laying bare", will be taking another step shortly with some "all angle photos" of now.